no choice

making decisions when the choices are nil
going back to that numb place still
cold on the outside,
inside i'm use to -

told myself this was a good thing
follow that straight and narrow line
tick the boxes
smile, be a lady
don't compromise on what is true to you

now i see it was all just a haze,
i've been lost in here for days.

That quiet sound of the past calls me
pretending that's where i should, or rather be

Frustrated at this place i continually find myself
unable to choose the way
unsure what to say....

this aint no love story today
just another role i chose to play.