NUmB

I'm numb now
i've drunk about as much as i can handle, yet theres still 2 litres left
i was an alcoholic at age 14, then again at 17, i guess now again at 25

and everywhere in between
i actually like it
before it was coke
before that it was pills
before that it was weed
and i still love the feel of those poisons passing down
down
down

infecting my body and mind

what is wrong with being sober?
it takes guts!
it takes courage!
you gotta be fucken strong to be sober 24/7
i'm not stong
i'm not anyone you know

i'm not even anyone i know



today..............

Clearly Cold

its always going to be like this

inside my head
my blood is cold

no amount of heat helps
i am naked
bones and blood
bones and blood

what can u make of this?
i was you
you were me


i was something

more than this nothing
with perspex walls

an endless slide into
an empty abyss