liar

"Life is all lies
you just pick which one you live."

We never know anything
until we are taught
by those before,
It's the way its always been, always will.

So you go on living your lie
following rules created for someone else.

I will live
soaring the sky,
running through the woods
and feeling the pain your lies have caused.

These bruises won't ever heal
this ink doesn't wipe off
I've tasted the real world,
I am proud of my scars

Shine

I am drawn by curiosity
she is different,
how?
-fascination is a consuming facet of life.
I want to understand
a hidden sadness
inside a hidden soul.
Is she deep?
Is her pain real?
Is the sky blue?
-Not when it rains.
That's your answer.
Look under the covers, she has many.

colourful world

The red cuts them
and the blue cries for them.
it's the black that kills them
and you'll blame the yellow.
my enemy is orange
and she eats those passionfruits
those purple passions.

so pick a colour
because it's all judged
and once branded
there is no escape.
hide, cover, you can never erase.
its immaculate stain remains...

direct me

so you pull yourself along this barbed wire life
falling apart.
empty vessels pointlessly roam
waiting to be told what to do
the need for direction.
you stand
poker faced
on the edge of your world that's crumbling around you
and with the rain, the earth forms a crust, a thickness you can't escape
its become too much
and swallowed you whole.

sensory

Over water
under water
deeper, under water.
Under the ocean
under the sand
to a steaming place coloured in orange.

She said it's refreshing,
I described it as frustrating.
She likes the smell,
I find the air hard to breathe.
She honestly enjoys it
and I feel like I'm the closest I've ever been to hell.

When it's cool, natural, dark, moist,
it could be anything or anywhere.
It's more of a cold sweat, not quite adrenalin.
You bear the hardest parts
because you know when you're out of it
it'll be amazing & so worth it.

I fell in love with your conversation
I knew who you were to me.
You were under my skin.

We danced and stumbled around the kitchen
all I wanted was to disappear
into the world that you'd escaped into.

There's a deep connection
anchored from my chest to yours
& at the moment my feet are caught on the reef
but I won't drag you under.

It's like you're on the other side
mirroring what I'm going through
I feel what you feel
I feel for you

I won't abandon you out there alone
but I can't be the saviour of birds with broken wings any more.
 

Frank

Feeling the winter chill
I hold my breath -
1.2.3.4.
Choking, spluttering
no matter how I try,
I can't stop my beating heart.
I thought if I could just stop it,
make it skip a beat
you would fall out of its rhythm
and out of my mind, my limbs, my veins.

Momentary weakness is all.
Just a passing breeze that makes us sway a little.
A passing breeze?!??!
You hit me like a fucking hurricane!
Swept me up in your swag
and when I hit the ground so hard
you just continued on your path of destruction,
this time, within yourself.

So I think I'll go sit outside
try n freeze my heart again.
It's never the same once its melted,
it can't be frozen the same.
The molecules change,
the dynamic changes.


I'ma need a jacket.