Moving day

Packing up my life,
again.
Picking up the pieces.
He was my rock,
now he just weighs me down

Light

I've lightened up
I lost your weight.
I didn't lose you,
I never had you


We play, we dance, we drink, we fly
and that night I was so high - 
I never thought I'd feel the earth beneath my feet again.


The view is different from six feet under...


and I would crawl through tunnels
running from the inevitable light


We lived between the sheets for months on end -
breathing each others air.
We didn't need anyone, or anything, else.
Well I still don't,
and now I don't need you


I feel light.
I feel that I could disappear on a clear sunny day,
disappear into that light that I ran from for so long.


At 6am when the lights come up, 
and the music goes down,
everything is so honest,
and you can't hide forever.
So you step into the light.

The Rope

I pressed the rope against my throat
remembering how I like to be submissive
it's been a while now that i've been tied up

you left me hanging
i couldn't breathe
its getting tighter
i'm getting tighter

I saw it hanging before you came
that delicious tangled knot waiting
I slid my hand through to test its strength

you've learnt better this time
check the height
& check it again
and again
and again

my head becomes light when i'm standing beneath you
& all I wanted was for you to notice
but it's not about you anymore

I pressed the rope against my neck
how i've missed the feeling of being free
but i'll wander far without this noose
and you know I can't be trusted

how long is a piece of rope?
throw it over the edge & i'll find out

...... i pressed......

run!

pick up the pace
run! cos u love the chase
no use looking back
the darkness has hidden all your tracks

one step, two step, three step, four
and then there was no more

over

Just like that cigarette
we smoked our time to an end
no more sweet kisses
no more midnight hugs.

I remember waking in the night to you
so hard beside me
finding our way in the dark
to each others bodies, we knew so well.

It's over now,
it's over.

He was never gonna be my saviour
the one I wanted forever.
Most of the time I watched my behaviour,
and he looked on silently.
I never got inside his head
he so willingly letting me into his bed.

But I don't feel used, or abused
just sad
that there is no more

it's over now
it's over

And such a big part of me wishes it wasn't
deep down I always knew
I kept you around for the pain
it was just easier to blame you.

grounded

you taught me to walk
I chose to crawl


when your this close to the ground
you'll see
its easier to fall