Soft

Faraway land I met a man
fair his hair and gentle his hand
Connected at a glance, something stirs
a little piece of my heart melts and softens in his eyes

unexpected although invited
I shy away from our first meet
fall back into old patterns and hide away
the pessimist in me, overbearing

still he finds a place to rest in my mind
and pace
all day
all night
my breathing is shallow till i see him
seeking him out in the shadows of the night lights

I feel my limbs shake
letting down some of this armour
letting in some of the warm softness

and he comes
those eyes
that smile
his peaceful disposition
I fall
I let myself fall

this is right
we were to meet
this time, this place
and it's just us, alone, tonight.
I breathe him in deep
and don't want to let go

misted memories
longing for more time
knowing we will find each other again

I fell for the culture
I fell for the land
I let myself fall for this beautiful Argentinean man

softly I whisper
"I don't want this to be just a fantasy land"
and leave a piece of my heart with him
connected in rhythm

Mi Amor

Forever?

I opened my heart
and watched it pour all over the floor
ankle deep
blood rising
he didn't flinch,
didn't move an inch
just smiled.

He's been waiting, predicting, expecting more,
not an ounce of judgement held in his soul
just opened his arms
my heart fell in rhythm with his.

Baited breath,
my anxious voice "forever?"
his reply "forevermore"

This mess

Found new cobwebs in my room today
I looked up today
wiped the haze away

Moonlight fills my space
you came in here, made a mess,
then left, without a trace

No thank you note, no goodbye
just this knife in my back
and pain behind these eyes

Shut down,
cut off the blood supply
we'll need a tourniquet
to quit this mess tonight

Some days be high
others, so low
and all we know is to 'go with the flow'

Dark

Don't follow me down,
it's dark and you can't see
anyway, I like to get a lil lost
screams echoing off the rocks
fade to silence

Perfect dark
void of sound
I could be anywhere
I could be anyone
or disappear completely into this nothingness that has held me too long.

so you wanna get lost
why can I still hear you?

hot heavy breath

That woman in your bedroom
hair, resting upon her shoulders
facing away from you;
you stare up those silken legs to her black lace.

Placing your hands on her arse,
sliding across her ribs and resting your hands as your fingers twist those erect nipples

Mouth on her neck
you can smell her wet
she wants this
you know as she feels for your belt

hot heavy breathing together

Now your clothes are on the floor
as you drop to your knees
turning her to you, circling your tongue around her lips

Throw her on the bed
and resume with your head
between her thighs
you meet eyes and paused as your breathe synchronise

then bring yourself inside her
thrusting deeper
and harder
as she bites your hand,
muffling her screams of ecstasy.
harder deeper
deeper harder
harder
faster fasterfaster!
you make it together

Sweat dripping from your chest to her back
you lie down next to her
connecting behind the gaze
souls latched
always.

no choice

making decisions when the choices are nil
going back to that numb place still
cold on the outside,
inside i'm use to -

told myself this was a good thing
follow that straight and narrow line
tick the boxes
smile, be a lady
don't compromise on what is true to you

now i see it was all just a haze,
i've been lost in here for days.

That quiet sound of the past calls me
pretending that's where i should, or rather be

Frustrated at this place i continually find myself
unable to choose the way
unsure what to say....

this aint no love story today
just another role i chose to play.

Below reality

Swim to the bottom of the ocean,
just to escape the tumultuous seas above.
You can't stay here forever.

So she puts on a 'happy song' and pretends its all ok.
Everything'll be ok.
Everything'll be fine.
If we can just keep our minds occupied with music,
If we can just keep our bodies occupied with dancing..

Faraway dreams,
and crystals on the ocean floor.

Free Your Mind

Its amazing
our view of the world
constantly changing.

From infancy to adulthood
we think we are learning
getting a better picture of what its all about.

What if all we know is wrong?
What if what we think is just what's told on the news,
on the television, the wireless, the internet...
The only stories told, voiced, aired
are what the media wants us to know.
The money have the power to essentially 'rule the world'
working together across the globe to ensure we behave the way they dictate:
fashion trends
what to eat
where to live
where to go
where not to go
who to avoid
who to trust
when to have a family
how to have a family
what is acceptable
what isn't acceptable

FREE YOUR MIND!

Try anything twice

Time gets taken away
every day
all we have is our memories and this moment right now.

Spontaneous decisions
impulse actions
and no regret.

'try anything twice'
what I live by.
I'll never apologise for being honest,
always try to keep a promise.
Your secret is locked in my heart

Change

The world looks different today
watching my hand on the wheel
the sun dances on my skin
making it appear glistening gold

My other arm stretched out the window
flying down this empty road
the air is no longer heavy
I've caught my breath

I've sucked in all this life around me
and it feels amazing!

My hair is wild
and no one occupies my mind.
- completely free.

Still, I'm left wondering
what it will take to settle this restless heart
and finally find a place called home;
or if I'm destined to live this gypsy life
- wandering and searching, forever alone
not necessarily lonely
just making my own path to happiness

Suffocating

When you left me here,
lying lifeless on the floor,
frozen on the inside,
trapped in this nothingness

You took all my air with you.

Slowly suffocating,
unless the cold gets at me first.

What happens now might be like nothin you've ever seen;
could be something you never even seen.

His back is already turned.

D.V.

Hit it again,
that love in her heart
that hope in her mind
all the while he remains abusive, unkind.

The blood drips on the inside
not a mark shown
no, he wouldn't dare
his methods are those of a coward:
to threat, control and scare

She'll justify it -
it was her fault,
"he's been drinking again"
or
"it's just the way of men".

So it continues for years
never speaking her fears.
No one to confide in,
no one would understand.
I only wish she could see - my outstretched hand

Fixie

You know why I care so much about you?
Why I can't let you go?
Because I see so much of myself in you
- all the things I wanna fix;
but can't deal with in myself
- the pain is too close.

And it's not so much that I wanna fix you
I want to fix me;
and be there for you to fix yourself
'cos I know what it's like to have no one
especially no one who could possibly understand
how fucked up this world is through my eyes

Our lenses are shaded the same
but its time for a change

Darker shade

My princess dances amongst purple pearls
A skirt made of crystal,
A head full of curls.

Her locks are not golden.
They're as black as the night.
Her eyes are green fields
With no life in sight.

I watch her closely as the wind makes me shiver
She turns her head and laughs
at the castles she has crushed into the sand.

My purple princess asks of me
Why I hide in the shadows,
Behind my glasses of ebony

I say it hurts my eyes and my mind
To see clearly
A world I once loved,
Self destructing before me

So we run away to the clouds
and dream forever

Terrible Lie - Nine Inch Nails

Trent Reznor has long been much inspiration for me - lyrics to 'Terrible Lie' with some lines omitted.

'Why are you doing this to me?
Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity?
I think you owe me a great big apology

I really don't know what you mean
seems like salvation comes only in our dreams
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme
can this world really be as sad as it fucking seems?

don't take it away from me
I need someone to hold on to
don't take it away from me
I need you to hold on to

there's nothing left for me to hide
I lost my ignorance, security and pride
I'm all alone in a world you must despise
I believed your promises
your promises were LIES

Terrible Lie

you make me throw it all away
my morals left to decay
how many you betray
you've taken everything

my head is filled with disease
my skin is begging you please
I'm on my hands and knees

I want so much to believe'

http://youtu.be/7wBaQMCE9aQ

Madness

Rustle. Riccadonna. Remnants & Lies
too long, I've been in this disguise
Dreams fallen apart
and broken hearts

When will the madness end, my friend?

Tickle, trickle, tipple
I'm tired of wandering
wondering
drifting

It's so a short a time we have
shouldn't we be happy?
Instead we work & tire
that constant struggle,
that financial desire
or a quest for fame
& in a few years,
will they remember your name?

So back down I drown
into that drunked-ness blurred vision
& make nothing of all this wisdom

When will the madness end my friend?

When can I go home?

Tippy Toeing

Whisper, winter, wannabe
& all that was, between you and me
Kiss. Kill. Incarcerate.
You think you're here?
You're too late!

You never stopped me
from losing control
& all along you knew
I could have it all.

All the boys & all the girls,
they'd all come to see
how far I'd come
& still I surprise, even the most sceptical ones.

Tippy toeing
across the coal that burnt your dreams
gathering the charcoal and dust
of something
that never really was.

Chem

I hate this chemical imbalance
and then I consider, this is how we should be

Some are born logical
some, born to work,
Sam Beckett said
"we're all born mad, some remain so".

Those like me,
we breathe creativity,
and we try to make it work.
So I need my match to be opposite
someone, to keep the balance.

Someone to keep me balanced.

Yeah, and I've got these grazes
damage I've done
too long, this goes on

and I dislike the feeling of regret
still knowing, it's not done yet.

How far will I fall next time
and can I go back, behind that line

Keep it quiet
inside your mind.

Relax you eyes
you're not yet blind.

skin deep

He doesn't
so why should i?

skin deep
is all they see
all they want to see
well,
that's not me
but look how good i can pretend.
I don't know the game as well as you tho
so lend me a hand.

You're an expert with these things -
put on a smile
hide behind your beauty,
for a while

All the time knowing it's just a fuck.

it's not for us,
just for you
SELFISH FUCKING CUNT!!!

Burn baby, burn

I'd much rather the fall of the fire.

Poor you have burnt your fingers
and now must stay away
from the intimate, the intense.

It's much safer on the fringe,
outside, looking in

Poor you will play it safe
and miss out on everything.